Thursday, May 19, 2011

Some kind of update

So, I don't know if this kind of blog is the right place to go on about more personal details, but I'm not really the kind of guy who wants to "talk" with people when life's stresses get you down. This post has both good and bad news, so if you can't stomach my bad news, I 'll start off with the good stuff first.

The Good: I've started a new company, Avant-Garde Mobile Detail. I'm looking to provide mobile detail and restoration services for Boats, RV's, trucks, motorcycles and some cars. So far, the response has been overwhelming; my biggest challenge is keeping up with the demand. For those that know me well, I've spent a lifetime in the trucking business. This new venture is both rewarding, and has all the earmarks of turning into a profitable business, with a growth potential that my prove to be significant one day. My only regret is not starting on it sooner; it's amazing just how much fulfillment you can get by truly working for yourself.

The BAD:  I'm sorry to report that after 12 years, my wife Julie and I are parting ways. This is a mutual decision, and as painful, humbling, and scary as it is, we both know it is a necessary step. I can say without a moments hesitation that I have no regrets, and I owe her more than I could ever repay for the years we had together. We have mutually decided to make this transition as painless and respectful as humanly possible, and I am very confident that we will truly remain as caring friends, and equal parents to our young son. There is little doubt that i am going to have to endure some emotionally brutal days as this sets in, but if I can be so bold as to offer advice to others, I would say that staying positive, busy, and most importantly well intended, is going to be the key in being able to continue living as a complete person. Those who know me well would agree that I'm too much of a stubborn prick to just lay down and die. I remain committed to the well being of both Julie and Ivan, and with the uncommon patience and consideration she has always shown me, I expect that we both will realize our potential in whatever direction we pursue.

It is not my intention to make anyone feel awkward reading this on here. It was not easy for me to write about this, but for all of our friends and family, it is important to know that we are doing what we feel is right, and there  is no animosity in this situation. I'm not too sure about using social media to share this sort of thing, but as I said from the onset, I really don't feel comfortable with those heavy one on one conversations. I don't want any misconceptions or speculation on what has occurred, just some understanding and encouragement.

So how does this all relate to the namesake of my humble little blog? I'm a complicated guy, and spiritually  I truly believe that we have many journeys to take in life, and my "clearing" is the final moment of reckoning. My path is now very uncertain, and will  be pretty bumpy for a long time to come.  Rest assured, I WILL still push forward, and above all I want to live life to the fullest. And for those who are fortunate enough to know Julie, please also know that she is a huge part of what I am today, and I will forever be in her debt. See you somewhere along the path............